At his first birthday, I decided I really needed to start working towards losing weight. That was almost TWO YEARS AGO! I struggled so much trying to cope with stress, time, hating my job, sometimes hating life. I tried to mask a perfect world while mine was crumbling around me. I tried running, biking, work out videos. None of them kept me interested or made me feel like I wanted to continue after 5-10 minutes.
I started Weight Watchers in April 2012. I wasn't serious at all. I weighed 163. We moved from NC to Florida in May so my weight loss journey was definitely on hold for a bit. We went back to Ohio for a week and I gained 5 lbs there. IN A WEEK. INSANITY!
Once we got back from Ohio, I decided I needed to start really changing my life. I started tracking my food everyday in Weight Watchers. I started swimming again. I swam competitively when I was a kid and dove in high school. I feel at home in the water(unless there is a dead frog at the bottom of the pool...then I feel icky). I lost 2+ lbs each week since starting to swim. I am home right now because I don't start my new job until July 9th. I am trying to swim at least 4 days a week and then strength train on the other 3(maybe 2 to be realistic).
Last week, I had a moment of crazy. A complete and total meltdown of the mind. I cried and cried and cried. I always wanted to be the trophy wife and I feel like I fail at that most days. Our country has built up the notion of beauty and I definitely don't fit that mold. Don't get me wrong, I feel pretty some of the time. Then I look down at my thighs that touch or my boobs that sag or my flabby belly and poof all prettiness is gone. I realize again that I needed to really put pedal to the metal and change. Not only for myself, but for the people around me who get the wrath of craziness!
So I am on a mission. That mission is to say Thin is In, Round is Out!
Current Weight: 157
Goal Weight: 140
1st Goal: 150 (Reward: Dinner with a New Outfit)
2nd Goal: 140 (Reward: Bikini)